j'veux des bébés 2003-02-15 (12:50 a.m.)

Just home from baby-sitting.

a) I want kids. Lots and lots of them.

b) I want Loïc's playroom. Why couldn't I still be a kid now and have a playroom just like it? Dood. The lucky little bastard. GameCube, -huge- lego table, little speakers in ever top corner for surround sound, Super Smash Bros. (*drool*), a dark blue futon, red doors and yellow walls, tv&vcr, a Weeble, a toy chest, little plastic cars to run around in, ... and I'm forgetting things.

So Loïc went to bed around 10, so I curled up on the couch with soft music and read a book for French class. Around 11, I hear Thierry whimpering, so I go to the room, and there he is sitting up with his arms out-stretched wanting to be picked up. Hi. Took him back to the living-room with me where he went back to sleep about 10 minutes later. So I brought him back to his bed. He woke up. Sat up and out-stretched his arms. Hi.

Did that three times, until I finally decided just to let him sleep on me, until Annie and Sebas came home.

Awww.

I want kids.

....

I still can't believe I bought pink.

I now own two pink tops. the other is a tank top...

Went shopping with Danya today.

When shopping with Ali last night.

Last night I got 4 pairs of cool and colourfull panties, one of which is with a tank top set.

Today, I bought a black and blue bra, I striped blue and red and yellow and dark blue very short sleeved cotton top, and a baby pink very long-sleeved stretchy thin cotton hoodie (with bourgandy hems and a little japanese appliqué lower left) that is a little too strechy to my liking, but umm.. I'm working out, and I go swing dancing about twice a week or so and for the time being it's just perfect to wear under a tshirt or something like that on a very cold day (like today). In fact, it fits very well with the other top I bought today, too. *happy*

Tonight is being spent baby-sitting Loic and Thierry. *happy*

Thanks Joy.

I'm hungry. So I'm gonna go make something to eat :D

I met Estelle a whole big long while ago, but only today did I sit down and chat with her, and with others, in the gay comitee room. I tend to hang out there a lot, because they rock. Hee. Lots of good, friendly, huggy people.. the room is for "gais, lesbiennes, bisexuel(le)s, et leurs amis". I fit into the "er leurs amis" category, more often than not.

So anyway. Estelle. She rocks. Speaks English in addition to French, too. Reminds me a whole bunch of Joy. Just for one example, we were talking about Alan Rickman and his voice. And there was something she said, and the intonation she said it in that was just so Joy.

I miss Joy.

Licking my wounds and letting the bruises heal to the sound of some awesome music that my other big brother Bill suggested me, Rufus Wainwright, and Leonard Cohen. It isn't unusual anymore to find me laying on my bed in the dark with my door closed and a candle burning in the evening, listening to aforementioned music. It feels good. And I can do my homework in peace. And take a break from the chaos that is my home, my mind, and my friends.

It's not easy, but I'm getting through it.

And I'm eating guacamole with pita bread and feta cheese. So everything's ok for the time being.

I'm keeping my hopes and spirits up.

And I think my newest favorite song is Instant Pleasure by Rufus. It doesn't really apply to me, but its got that, "see if I care" attitude to it, and it makes me feel good. That and Hallelujah by Leonard Cohen (or done by Rufus.. whichever :D)

avant - après

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